I’ve been missing these few days because I’m very ill, yesterday I hardly stood from the bed because of a headache. I also look like a pile of shit, with huge bags under my eyes. But none of this matters. What matters at the moment is that I’m seriously thinking of ending my 7 year relationship, because I’m sick of being treated like a garbage - something that I actually am. I’ve been thinking about my misogynism these days, and I’ve come to some conclusions that I probably don’t like women so much, because I desperately want to feel like one. I’m 26 years old and I’ve never been touched like a woman; I’ve never been told the words which are so fucking simple and every female wants to hear; I will never look like a real woman. So I prefer never even look at them because they all remind me of what I am not.

Only you, dear followers, have ever made me feel closely to something most people feel often, even if they deny it - satisfied for a moment. But good words always come from people that don’t know us. Nevertheless, I want to thank you. I guess internet has been and will be all I have for a long, long time.